Today is my father's 24th anniversary with his job. He has worked there for almost as long as I've been alive. Like many older generations in my family, I can see this reflected in my parent's lifestyle as their company loyalty is displayed in much that they do and own. The way that I think of my current job is very different. Currently, I see this job as a great resume builder, a stepping stone to something better in just a few years, not something that define's me. I'm proud of my father for taking the steps to go to school, and start making a new definition for himself.

Yesterday and today seem to be a time for some serious introspection. I returned today to work after a long, eventful weekend. I can't help but feel that in my absence certain things about this job and my life are reset to very good standing, and others are left in a standstill as I wonder what the heck is going on! I've missed out on information, I've been absent from important conversations. I'm having many "outsider looking in" type of moments and I'm just wating for the time when I can be on the inside again.

I'm taking care today to learn how to control myself in lieu of trying to control everything around me. Despite all the seriousness, I'm blessed, I'm in love, I have amazing friends.