so, i've been mulling over some recordings i've been making for the past couple of months, and today i just had the liberating thought that the songs are the same songs regardless of the style of production in which they are presented. which in turn spurred the old me who used to geek around tweaking all sorts of stuff on recordings instead of just letting them breathe on their own. i feel like now i have a happy balance, knowing that the songs exist as themselves whether or not i can present them the same way live, and the fact that they can be interpreted in many different ways is not discouraging or scary but actually liberating. so that puts more stuff on my plate to work on in the (very) near future.

i can't wait to go home though. i miss people, whether or not they miss me.

jvh