If Only

As I look back my time at Jim Bailey Middle and Escambia High School. I then began to think to myself If Only I was saved back then. Now I'm always wonder to myself If Only and did those I knew that had lost there way to Lord did they ever find him like I did. ? What If Only I would have used my leadership skills for God's WILL for my old schools .In a way God was using me with me knowing; I always believed that a person was smarter then what people gave out.? Nevertheless God always sent might warrior woman in my life right on time. On that note that's an away how I got saved and went to my first Branded by Fire always because of my friend big sister. As I went back to my old schools I began to think about my lost friends that I had back then and how I was lost. Could I have been that service that God needed to take my school? Would I have made a real different? Would I have been the one to create a movement at my schools? I don't know but I do know I would have went after the in my schools. I had a friend that was raped, or the one that sold weed and smoked it too. Also the one that always seemed to always stay in abuse relationships. There was an Alcoholic and sex addiction and she would always bring me alcohol. It was like I knew she was doing wrong but, I just did not care about here or what happen to me. I also had a friend that told me that she was raped and, instead of her forgiving that one guy. She looks for LOVE in all the wrong places. What about the one that was in a abuses relationship and I think of the works she told me, that this was his first time hitting me. I replied to her that I am praying for and that I pray and hope that it does not happen again because it may be even worst. It's amazing what women will do to stay in a relationship even if their partner is not in love with them. Just what If Only I would have been saved in middle school I knew a girl that was to smart and to easy for her age. If Only I would have helped my friend that was gay to stay straight by praying the homosexually demon off of him. If Only I would have told my friend from middle school that dating a thirty year old that was married was wrong. Instead of walking away from her like nothing was wrong with her I should have gotten to the root of her problem. Then about two mouths ago I saw my old friend Nicole she lives her life in a wheel chair. I wished that I would have prayed for healing over her body. If Only I would have not been so scared I would have healed her or at least pray she could have been saved. Moving on I have to ask where are the really warriors of Christ? Like the ones that stood for Christ, like Ruth, Mary, Harriet Thurman, and so many more. Just where they its like we can stand in church and say I LOVE YOU JESUS but, when your teacher ask what or who would you die for and we just say nothing like Jesus did not die on the cross for our sins. In the bible it is said in if you act like you don't know Jesus. Then he will act like he does not know you. So why are we afraid? Is it because of what the lost will say to us init says do not be afraid I am always with you. Its like we are letting the Devil win the battle before it has even started and he did not even need to when that battle. So where are our real Mighty Warrior Woman that stands up Christ! If Only students I'm asking you to stand up and be the Mighty Warrior that God has called you to be. I don't want you to have the regrets that I have tell this day. During the summer 2008 Branded by Fire God began to convent me about my school and my friends. God reminded me of my friend Sam that was in a trouble car accident. On her back home an eight wheel truck hit her and pushed her into the trees. I called to check on her one after class and her mom told me all her bones were broke expect her skull and right arm. If Only I would believed in healing power of Jesus Christ and prayed over her before she left to go home that lasted Thursday. But no all I did was run from the power of God like he existed. I vaulted that if I have lost friends that don't know Jesus or Play Fake Christian that I would pray for them. If Only I had one more chance to see my lost classmates. My God I'm so sorry for not caring about the call that you have placed over my life! Never would I think that God wants me to do amazing things for his kingdom. I don't want to keep asking if only anymore I ready to do what God has called me to do! I will not stop until the day I die so that the lost will be saved!