i looked inside
only to find
that i am found wanting
"wanting what?", she asks ...

new shoes and a new start
an old car with new tires
a new tomorrow with a hint of yesteryear
new pay with old prices
new hello's with no goodbye's
new memories, no more lies
old friends, new faces
old music, new radio stations
less el niño and less global warming
more pizza with better toppings
less heartache, more heart
guitar strings that never break, a hollywood part
a tour of every city with someone that loves me
my brother to be alive, just so he can bug me
a constant will for truth
the courage to tell her, "i like you"
motivation when its not there
me being merciful even tho its not fair
more jesus and less "christianity"
less school and more partying
the drive to workout everyday
a job with better benefits and better pay
a future i'm not afraid of
to know the true meaning of love
a son to build things with
a daughter for me to over protect
a wife that loves me no matter what
cause i know i'll mess up a lot
a small house with tight walls
so my family will be the closest of all
a chance to change the past and the wisdom not to
one more chance to tell my grandpa, "i love you"

there is a lot i want
and a lot i'm not
but i count my blessings
for all i have
and for all i am

- there's a hole in all of us ... its just a matter of what you're going to fill it with -