VIRB

I read daily but I'm not really learning
I've been to church but I'm not moved by any sermon
My face is weak I haven't prayed for a week
I wake up and just weep my face in a sink
I'm not seeing you and it seems I'm going crazy
I feel trapped
I feel less a man
Because I have no 5 year plan nor a piece of land
My family and friends think so much of me
I desire that Godly wife who will show love for me
But I just find myself struggling
Even though I talk to all
They tell me what to do but I'm not listening when I ought to be
I'm TRYING to trust you yet I don't want to disgust you
I'm in the midst of my sin I'm ashamed to even discuss you
Today my anxiety's got the best of me
I know Christ but for hours I refuse to rest in you,
I'm not the best of men but Lord I know I really love you
I can't understand why lately I'm not thinkin' of you.
People trust me
Do you trust me?
Father I need more of you
Touch me
Empty, break and have your way with me
I CAN"T hear you
Are you even listing to my cry
It's killing me
If I was supposedly made in your image
Does that mean it kills you?