I am reading a book right now. It is out of print and I had it shipped from the U.K. I don't make this statement to sound cool...I make this statement to express how much work I put in to just getting my hands on this book.

The book is "Until the day breaks....The life and work of Lilias Trotter. Pioneer missionary to Muslim North Africa.

Lilias Trotter just in case you didn't already know is my new found hero. I feel a kindred spirit to this women and may name my daughter after her some day. If you are thinking about marrying me....you are going to have to like this name. (j/k)

Here is my first of many quotes by Lilas that is working through my spirit:
p 18

"It is only as we go on into a life of surrender that the blessed joy of pouring out to him our costly things dawns upon us. This giving sets free a spring of conscious love and the love, in its turn, inspires to fresh giving; and though the pain involved is still pain, such a strange sweetness becomes interwoven with it that we wonder whether heaven can be perfect without the possibilty of suffering loss for him."