haha, a year?!?

i was exploring my old livejournal and found this poem i wrote awhile ago. it makes me smile.

oh.
but if only it would thunderstorm
and i were camping.
to lay there
bared to the elements
reminded of my inconsequential
miniscule life.
to feel the bang
and …

a reflection

because i was out of whisky and wine, my usual evening tipples, and decided to do what he used to do, in fact with most of the same alcohol and mixers that he had, 3 and a half years ago. i created some concoction that tasted an awful lot like grape koolaid or …

eeps. sorry for the lapse.

So last night I worked with Dean (my new roomie) at a catered party over in Point Breeze. holy shit talk about nice houses. The people hosting this party were really nice, so I feel slightly bad about the 8 or so bottles of wine we pilfered that are sitting on our …

heh.

why am i always surprised when i end up not being able to depend on anyone else? i am so tired of always getting left on my own to clean up the mess (metaphorically as well as literally).
i'm tired.

Two Proust quotes for you...

"There were no beautiful spectacles except the ones which I knew were not artificially contrived for my pleasure, but were necessary, unchangeable -- the beauties of landscapes or of great art."

"Nature seemed to me the thing most opposite to the mechanical products …

history, religion, and government.

and it just got me thinking more and more about how much america has changed from what it was supposed to be. i think we've done a fair job of maintaining the separation of religion and government, but the overall function of the government has become far too …

in support of justine

apparently there has been some controversy and outrage on the part of women politico-types in pittsburgh that justine is involved in the Reform Pittsburgh Now group. some people are saying she's not politically aware and she's only adding to the stereotype of uninvolved …

personal update

i've been listening to ani a bunch again, and then today i talked with my ex-girlfriend on the phone for the first time in a long time and i really really miss her. i miss having people around who i could always just show up and hang out with.
people who liked to just …

yay for the pool

i was debating today, cuz i was tired, thought i should nap, and the pool costs $4 to get into....thinkin i should save my money and just get some rest before i went back in to work.
but then i saw that blue sky again and said....no. i will go to the pool, dammit, and …

my trip to the beach

so, after pancakes on sunday i decided to head for the beach. i cleaned up my apt in case the landlord showed it while i was gone, and hit the road by 2pm. thanks to fast and slow and fast and slow speeds on I-70, it took me about 7 hours to get there instead of 6, but …

whee poetry

oh.
but if only it would thunderstorm
and i were camping.
to lay there
bared to the elements
reminded of my inconsequential
miniscule life.
to feel the bang
and groan
in my bones.
to see the flash of the lightning
through the rain fly
and for just a …

well, no one ever said life would be easy.

so. my situation is this--i have three options for my immediate future:
1. move to AR and be with andy
2. move to TN and be with my mother
3. stay in pittsburgh and be by myself. (but with all my awesome new friends)

1: i miss andy terribly. i didn't realize how …

name that tune! er....author....

"why can't i just turn it off? if this is how it's gonna be..then let me just turn it off. like this bug!! this bug that taunts me with its coldness!! i keep killing it and it keeps coming back!!"
"you don't think maybe there's more than one bug in this place?"
"don't …

heh.

i find it really interesting that all the men at the coffeeshop, upon learning about andy's move, ask me "so when are you moving down?" and i would bet that less than half are kidding.
the women, on the other hand, not one of them has asked that. most of them ask me …

slightly more though-out ranting

so. religion is a topic often debated at my coffeeshop. sometimes it's a fun debate, other times it becomes a shouting match. tonight was neither of these, more just an uncomfortable disagreement between two customers. one is a regular and studies eastern religions …

Gah!

so maybe i'm just cranky....i mean, everyone is irritating me this morning, true, but this especially gets on my nerves.
attention customers:
do NOT come in here and tell me all your personal problems, especially your financial issues....i mean, it sucks that you're …

Whoopee! the Treehouse is open!

As of this month, the Creative Treehouse (www.creativetreehousepgh.com) is now open! They are accepting applications and interviewing interested artists.
Here's more info from an article in today's Post-Gazette: [http://www.post-gazette.com/pg/07144/788376-54.stm]
If …

*insert long-suffering moan here*

so next time i burst into tears when i hand in a test, i'll have to make sure it's not a librarian that i hand it to.
ok, so don't you think that if you see that the test is on : "Chapter 4 and the Conic Sections in Appendix B", you'll study chapter 4 and appendix B in …

may what now?

can't believe it's may already. i turn 24 this month and i feel simultaneously really old and really young all day every day. it's exhausting. everything is just weird anymore, but for now iwill keep on, moment by moment and day by day.
for now, it's naptime.

donuts and art , you say?

what a crazy combination!!
but not really. everyone should come to bellevue tonight to check out the latest happenin' event at the Creative Treehouse. there will be donuts. and art. and people. but not me. cuz i'll be working at affogato. you should walk 3 blocks down …