Why did I name this tora tora tora. Why? Because I am at war! I am at war with society, and in paticular the fiscal side of society. I need money. I make money (sometimes) but it seems lately I cannot earn a dollar without being scrutinized by someone. Tora Tora Tora is interesting it means Tiger in Japanese, but seperated to means "attack" and ra means "torpedo" or "torpedo attack". Code word used by the Japanese to signify that the mission against pearl harbor was successful. I am at dire state in my life. Or maybe I should say a crossroad. I am at a state where decisions are made. Here is the situation. I need money, but I am so close to making lots of money. It is like the swell before the wave. I am sucked dry of assets, I was so close to donating plasma today because I was so broke. But, at the same time I have all these business things going on. I was making good money this summer. Really good money, but recently with me cutting back at work to focus on my personal business I just don't have the assets. I am working on a new idea that could bring in the money. It is a facebook application. I dont want to give too much away, but when I invite you trust me if you add it I can guarantee you it is worth your time. $$$. My goal is to get 200,000 active users ,which equals roughly $3.86 million in profit a month -- after taxes!

So I found a girl that I really like. Her name is Beth. She is actually really cool and unlike my recent choices not slutty or bitchy. She is probably one of the most gorgeous girls I have seen in a very long time if ever. I really like her but I have to make sure things progress slowly for a few reasons. My trip to boson, and simply because Im not ready for a relationship. The odd thing is that she has a kid, but it does not bother me one bit. The thing that bothers me the most about this is the fact that she lives an hour and 15 minutes away. I really feel something with this girl, nt sure why, but i just do.

So, I have a new hobby, kayaking... ask me about it sometime... it is great. It is a great workout. I don't know why I love it but I just do. I went fishing today on the kayak. I caught a small bluegill. it was interesting. I may go tomorrow. who knows.

So my buddy Ryan is possibly joining the military. Not sure what I think of all that. i know the guy and his dedication to things. It is not that I am criticizing him, it is just that I think it is not for him.

Moving on... I am officially in love with gin and tonics. here is my official gin choice... bombay saphire... great great drink... i am on my 4th right now. just as an addition.