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About
Hey my name is Niki. Let me tell you a little bit about myself I am 14 years old I love music my favorit ban in the world is my chemical romance i would not be abel to live
without them the help me through my darkest hours. I think that the T Write Love One Her Arms is one of the best oranazations in the world every one needs some one to love them. The story behind this organization is so beautiful I mean I know it is full of tragity but I think that what is happing now is a beautiful thing she is serounded by people who love and care for her and that is so sweet that no one gave up hope and helped her to get better.
My Music
Music
MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE, The Used, The Red Jumpsuit..., Escape The Fate, Paramore, Flyleaf, The Academy is..., H.I, M, Linkin Park, Madina lake, Bullet For My Valintine, Hawthorn Hights, UnderOath, The Almost, Aiden, 30 Sceonds To Mars, Three Days Grace, Armor For Sleep,
Television
Interests
Comments - see all 27
Hey i havent heard from you in a while, write back!!!
posted Jan 23
oh alright...just wonderin... you usually write back sooner.. but that alright.... whats up hows it goin?
posted Jan 12
has there been something wrong or what?? cause its been a long while,,, at least a LOT longer than it usually takes and im wondering whats up??
posted Jan 12
How come you havent written back in a while?? Nething wrong?? Hope yer doing alright!!! Chels
posted Jan 9
helllllloooo new friend. i'm brian. tell me about yourself.
posted Jan 8
thats cool... haha... me and my friends run around like psychos too!!! its probably the most entertaining form of fun ive ever found... and you definately get a lot of stares and quite the crowd to join you... its loads of fun!!! whats your craziest moment with them?? but thats good not to be a slut.. definately something to be proud of!! there arent many girls out there who can honestly say that... so its cool you can!!... alright... i just hate talking to people when i have no idea of what they look like... when i get back to iowa i should add some too... i dont even know if i have any pics of me on the computer though lol.. oh well... ill find some!!!
posted Dec 29
yeah.... same here... lol... she was hiking???.... but i wish i could get along with guys as much as you... what type of guys do you hang out with?? what do you usually do?? today was so much fun!!! with my EXTENDED family of course... lol... you should add a picture of yourself... so im not just looking for the virb box lol... what do you even look like?? so far your words...
posted Dec 28
yeah... when people feel sorry for me.. i feel like i did something wrong.. like why are they feeling bad its my problem... and if they feel bad it often makes me feel worse.. cause i feel bad just because of me they are sad... and yeah it is hard talking about it.. but i do sometimes... thats crazy about that one woman though.. its always sad to hear about though... and yeah... girls can really mess with you... kinda dumb how impowered they can get soemtimes.. when they are really nothing special.. the egos they have are outrageous... but thats good the guys work out all right
posted Dec 27
yeah.. I just don't think it's the best thing to joke about in general... its not something fun when it happens.. and it usually scars people for life... and of course you don't want people to feel sorry for you... I don't want anyone to ever feel sorry for me.. and yeah it was a pretty sad thing to know that my best friend had that happen.. she was babysitting and it happened... and I was the first person she told.. yeah.. I think its best to hang out with all the types of groups possible.. lol.. emos such a common thing to be called.. if your depressed even once.. then everyone thinks your emo and it never seems to go away.. and yeah a lot of girls try and pull off the Barbie doll, im perfect thing, when they really aren't.. and that bothers me a lot.. I tend to get along with girls.. so that interesting you get along with guys more..
posted Dec 22
Yeah.. its really is ironic.. but interesting because I think if more people understood, they would respect us more... And and interesting thing is that one of my friends never understood why I didn't like to be touched.. even knowing what happened to me... and then in 8th grade it happened to her.. and she came up to me and tearfully apologized because now she actually knew why I did certain things I did and why I didn't want to be touched... and she was crying.. because it hurt her so much knowing that she would poke fun of me not wanting to be touched.. but now she was the same way And yeah your right.. I don't usually show it.. I usually just let it go.. but it really does hurt.. and people don't really understand or see that Lol.. a lot of people don't like me either... but I don't really care.. though im more popular than most.. because I have like 30 friends in each category... preppy, jock, emo, punk, skater, cheerleaders, goths, nerds... I don't just limit myself to one group, which ends up getting me more friends than not.. That's kinda opposite of me though that you have more guy friends.. most all my friends are girls.. I have maybe 10 guys friends.. compared to the like 500 girl friends... but then again.. idont really like being around guys.. and im not scared of girls.. so.. yeah
posted Dec 15
yeah... I know... and hopefully you can fully stop that sometime, and for a while too!! Wow... you get called the same thing?? That's absurd... I think its such a mean thing to say to someone, especially when they aren't even a lesbian at all... People call me that... but eventually it bites them in the butt cause like my one best friend I used to have used to call me that... and I never really expressed to her how bad it mad me feel... and now that were not friends and wont ever be again because of a few reasons... I thought I would show her how bad it would make her feel.. cause I think to demonstrate it to someone is the best way to show the damage it does... so her and her new best friend hang out a lot right?? So everytime im around them I say awwww you two look cute cause no one really likes them now because of what she said and did to me... and im just like whens to wedding and stuff like that.. which is mean.. but I don't say it to the average person.. shes someone who deserves to hear it... and I feel the whole touching thing is one of the biggest reasons I don't like having a boyfriend or really anyone too close to me.. because its just awkward and theres something in me that tells me its so wrong... but im sorry to hear about that boy... that really sucks he would just up and drop you like that... im sure that was rough... lol.. and I think we all have our psychotic side.. some just make it more apparent... lol... I get called that sometimes though.. people just know my past is messed up and like the effects the medication I was on had on me.. and just the parents I have to live with.. so its more of an accepted psychoticness...
posted Dec 14
Yeah so do I.. But the likeliness that even if they stop... they most likely still wont understand.. Which is sad.. But its something I've come to terms with.. And yeah.. I really didn't feel comfortable at all.. And it sucks cause people wonder why I don't like guys or girls.. And I get called a lesbian a lot cause I wont explain myself... and like.. I wont give my parents hugs.. And basically all I do is high five people.. Because I just don't like that bodily touch by anyone.. Sometimes a big hug is nice but other than that nothing feels good.. And I mean don't live your life in fear that it might happen... just because I had it happen to me when I was young.. Doesn't mean that it will happen to you... but what was the secret you told him??? Was it that you hurt yourself or what?? But that's good that you found someone you could really get close to... hopefully someday ill be able to find that person.. And yeah.. that's kind of an automatic reaction of mine too.. cause I really don't like having anyone touch me.. my dad will play around with me and I never see it as funny.. it bugs me to no end.. Lol.... But that's really funny how defensive you get!! I would do the same thing.. cept im scared to get mad at people.. its weird.. I don't think ive ever really been mad at anyone cept my parents..
posted Dec 13
Oh don't worry about it.. its fine!!... I would wanna get singstar too, but I cant sing lol.. but that's cool!!... and yeah idk.. me and my parents just don't agree on anything.. and its just always a fight.. so I tend to try and look at it in a more humorous way!!... and im excited to go on the vacation cause ill get to see my cousin!!.. yeah I just got braces on today!!! Im not sure if I got good colors though.. idk.. I take a long time to get used to something.. and yeah.. ihate that about guys too... it just made me really uncomfortable... so I thought it would be best.. and yeah.. that's odd cause im the same way.. like if someone touches me I just wanna be like.. can you stop.. cause it justmakes me feel bad ... I just don't like it at all.. and yeah I know.. I hope I find a guy I really want!!... Newho.. what are you up to?? How are you doing?? We didn't have school cause of the huge ice storm here.. and im not sure if we'll have school tomorrow
posted Dec 11
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Rockstar Fletch says:
Yeah.. ive been worried about where youve been.. its been BEYOND forever.. but i understand.. we all get busy... but next time you write me.. just write a message... its much easier hope to talk to you again soon!!!
posted Feb 5