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Hollow VI

Wed, 11 Apr 2007 22:24:11 -0700

I am so very sorry. I guess I'm just not what you need right now. Please know that I understand. I know there are other (more significant) people to talk to. But I can not deny that I am truly Red about this. Is there not another (more significant) person for me? Time to cut the circumulocution short. In my own 40 days I've sworn against complaining. I think I'll go find Jack. He's sure to lend me some powerful problem solvers.

Hollow V

Sun, 08 Apr 2007 23:11:34 -0700

Dear You, Congratulations! You have successfully impaired the human race past the point of hoping for salvation. In the process of advancing medicine to extend everyones life and create more babies than ever before and overpopulate the planet and basically throw everything of balance, you have created super viruses and embarrasingly frail and vulnerable human specimens. You have also corrupted the world's most laughable government and sent idiots into high power positions to do ditry deeds for you (and I'm not talking about the president). And let's not leave out the fact that you have wasted all resources and in doing so burned a hole in the only thing separating the earth from outer space. Maybe if we're lucky we'll all float out the hole into space and freeze to death. It would most certainly be better than burning to death from direct sun rays and weird radiation-induced diseases. And of course, the best part: that the population is losing all ability to form a coherent thought and pose a logical question. Technology is taking over our own mids. We are lazy, disgusting, selfish, sleazy, boring, wasteful, careless, fucking deadbeats that have destroyed the world. I would like to thank you. You make it a wonderfully horrific ride through hell. Now let's sit on our lazy asses and watch TV as we wait for Jesus to come send us on down. Sincerely, Jack

Hollow III

Fri, 06 Apr 2007 23:01:06 -0700

I am nearly 100% sure that Jasper hates me. Oh well, I guess we must learn to cope. Finally, a small window of freedom - also known as spring break. Nothing will happen. It will be boring and wasted time. Of this I am 110% sure. I am going stir crazy. I haven't seen friends outside of school in too long. I can literally feel myself wasting away as I sit alone, being lazy... I hate it. But I hate a lot of things. Too much, probably. Everybody tells me I hate everything and that I get mad too easily and take offense to everything. Most of it - well, some of it - is meant as a joke. I guess my sense of humor is messed up? But I don't care. I've given up on that. I will not change myself to be liked. I figure, there's going to be someone out there that really understands me. That will love me for all the ridiculous things that I am. Plus, by changing myself, I would be letting my own foundation fall apart. And I can hope that someone might see what I do, and realize they should do the same thing. That is, be their own person. I don't tell people things. Because, when you're told something, you tend to not want to listen to it. Maybe even prove it wrong. So if you try to help someone by telling them something, you might just make it worse - or at least delay the realization. But if you just do something that will affect them in some way and cause them to do something, you might just stimulate them to construct their own thoughts and figure it out on their own. And if they figure it out on their own, they know how they got there, and why it makes sense. And I guess that's basically all I want to do. To make people think for themselves. That's at least part of it. I really think that if everyone would just think more, listen more, be open more, that the world would be a much better place. I really fear for our future. Not just the future of the planet, but the people here just as much. I know something major must happen soon. Some huge staple in our lives is going to collapse, and then we'll realize that some major changes must be made. It really makes me mad. I want to be part of the uprising, whenever it starts. I want to be there when the world falls apart, and when we put it back together.

Hollow II

Fri, 06 Apr 2007 14:20:43 -0700

I am hungry for some human contact. Another day I've wasted watching my potential evaporate. Every day I see what I wish I was, what I might've been, had I ever had the chance. Today I was upset. Normally, I honestly dont care what other people think of me - if they hate me. But I do suppose that until now anyone who did despise me so was someone I would dislike anyway. But if Jasper hates me, that must mean that something about me is offensive enough that the nicest person in the world can't tolerate it. I hope I'm paranoid. I do, really, try so hard to be genuinely nice. I do, I'll readily admit, have social skill issues that make it incredibly difficult to translate my intentions into actions. I know too many people perceive me as mean. I think I might be. I hope I'm not. I am a loser. But I enjoy it immensely. I have no standards to live up to; my friends are the same way. I have it made. I am spoiled. I take it all for granted. I wish I really had something to complain about. This life is boring and sheltered. I can't wait to escape this God-forsaken place called Hollow and and make a real life. I'm told that it only gets worse, but honestly, I don't see how it could get any worse than this - at least in the ways I'm talking about. And part of me wants to struggle, just to be able to say I'm human. To feel like I'm human. I try way too hard. I learned recently that I'm loved more for my fake front than for the actual "Mary". It hurts to know. I feel like I'm melting my brain by saying these disconnected thoughts and doing these boring, overrated things, but apparently that's all anybody wants to see. Nobody will invite the nice-but-doesn't-add-any-fun-to-the-event girl. Sure, they'll talk to her when she's near, but nobody would go out of their way to make sure she's there. I hate people. I really do. I don't understand them. I've yet to meet one that understands me. I know there's at least one out there. I just haven't found them yet. But even though I hate them, people amaze me. Like I said, all I want is some human contact. I'm long overdue.

All Hail King Dale

Wed, 28 Mar 2007 18:13:21 -0700

I miss last year. The classroom discussions. The Countdown. The hysterics. The Cool Kids. The rainy days. The last field day. The headaches. The reluctant "family". The big ideas. The V. I love how we were so sure. I love how we were so right.

McInedible

Mon, 26 Mar 2007 19:40:04 -0700

I despise this God-forsaken place. They call it school, but that's only to disguise the truth. It's actually a huge conspiracy. They take the children and force them to learn unneccesary things and numb their brains for a future of mindless fascist politics and monopolized chain corporations. Scary, isn't it?

time

Sun, 25 Mar 2007 12:58:42 -0700

God... I really can't take the fucking myspace whores and fake crusaders that think they're the shit. Just because you spit out ninety-eight thousand blogs and religiously read your subscriptions does not mean you've figured anything out. Please. People need to stop trying. Stop trying and just exist. Justify your place on the planet. You can say what you need to without a metaphor, and stop trying to change everything. Nothing will change. Ever. It doesn't need to. It's fine the way it is. So stop trying to be the savior. We will not extol you. And here's the best part: dun dun dun duuuhhhhhhhhhhhhh NOBODY CARES!!!!!!!!! yaaayyy for righteousness! for imperfections! for cliches, labels, stereotypes, war, politics, religion, radicals, suffering, poverty, filth, hate, sake, love, crime, fear, death, life, alcohol, prescriptions, stitches, heat, spite, compassion, disaters, crises, light, people, and the perfectly sardonic extent of time to experience it all.